If you looked in my life
And see what I’ve seen…
This song is on the 2nd album Mary J. Blige released in November 1994… I was a Junior in High School and I purchased the cassette tape… and of course put miles of use on my stereo tape player listening to it repeatedly. This song is particularly special to me. The lyrics hit me hard at a time in my life when I was dealing with a lot of internal strife, pain, and no outlet. My family had been ripped apart, flipped on its head, and my heart ached nonstop. I found comfort in blasting music and dancing in my room… Sometimes, I would put on my walkman and just walk up and down the neighborhood streets, praying to God for peace, for a resolution, and for comfort… It wouldn’t come for many years… and I do recall sharply telling people “if you say to me one more time that what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger, I will kick you”… Yea, I had some anger issues. Now, I listen to this song and feel peace… and gratitude that I had something and somewhere to turn.
It is easy to pass judgment on people, without really knowing what private struggles each is dealing with. Perhaps being kind, patient and a bit more understanding could go a long way with someone… You just never know. Hope you enjoy the track.